Being my own worst critic or “If patience is a virtue…”

Those of you who have followed my blog for a while will know that I don’t just have Parkinson’s, I have a cocktail of comorbidities (things wrong with me) that affect my life as a package.

For the past three years, I have been plagued by arthritis, which caused me to have a total right knee replacement, followed quite closely by a significant back injury requiring surgery at the beginning of this year. Both are some of the most serious operations you can have. When you start off with Parkinson’s and then add other maladies to the mix, it is a lot to deal with. Most of the time I think I deal with it all quite well, but sometimes it does get to me.

During the past three years therefore, I have hardly been able to do any exercise and also I know I have been comfort eating because I have been bored and annoyed with my situation. I am fortunate that I have been able to have operations to address the issues and both appear to have been successful.

But, I get so impatient! I feel cheated by these things that have affected my mobility, when Parkies has been so well behaved and not – thus far – caused me any mobility issues at all. This should be a time when I make the most of my mobility and go on the long walks I used to join my husband on. To travel and enjoy life and make the best of it. My husband keeps reminding me that I am only six months post surgery on my back and to try to remember how far I have come in just six months. I acknowledge that he is right of course, but it doesn’t stop me being annoyed with myself. I just want to get on with life and not have too many things to slow me down just yet.

So, I will try to be more patient and do my exercises and go to the pool three times a week and soon I will also be back at bowls. I will make sure I give myself the best chance of losing weight and being healthier and the exercise I will get at bowls will certainly help.

But, I can’t help it…

If “Patience is a virtue…” I am not that virtuous, I’m afraid!

Published by kiwipommysue

I am a retired Social Worker having retired in May 2024. I had been a Social Worker for over 20 years and for the sake of my health and wellbeing I chose to retire early. I have some literary projects underway and am enjoying the freedom of no longer working. Working on my projects at my own pace and enjoying my new hobby of lawn bowls is a wonderful thing. No regrets and a new kind of busy in retirement is wonderful.

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