More than my fair share…

I have said before now that Parkies is not the only health issue that I have. I have arthritis in my hands and beginning in my knees and also in my back. I have had to have four operations to put in artificial finger joints because of my arthritis. I also have a hiatus hernia that plays up from time to time. I have a left leg that regularly gives me extreme pain. Now, I have just received news that I have a new health issue to wrap my head around.

I went for an ultrasound scan last week, as I have had pain in the right side of my stomach for some time. No-one seemed to know why or indeed what to do about it. Then recently, after some significant pain one of the Doctors at our medical practice – not our usual GP – decided to send me for an ultrasound. She had thought there was a possibility that I had gall bladder problems. The good news is no gall bladder issues.

Next comes the bad news….

I received a text this morning and all it said was, ‘Hi Sue – USS showed fatty liver. Dr Hollie.’ I don’t know who Doctor Hollie is and so I tried ringing the cellphone the message came from. No luck, as the message advised the voicemail was full. So, I decided to consult ‘Dr Google’. In the absence of a health expert to inform me what this meant, it felt like my only choice. The more I read about ‘fatty liver’ the more worried I became. It sounds like it could be pretty serious. There are of course varying degrees of this condition. I have no idea how serious my own diagnosis is, but having a messed up liver is far from ideal.

I have read that this can be caused by excessive fats in the diet that the liver can’t process. It can also be caused by higher than recommended alcohol consumption. I do like a G&T, Cider or Wine, but don’t consider myself to have a problem with alcohol. Remedies range from diet changes to low fat, getting more exercise and either cutting down – if not at the more serious end of the spectrum – or abstaining from alcohol altogether.

I know that I have put on weight gradually over the time since my diagnosis in 2020. I have perhaps been ‘comfort eating’. I know I have said from time to time that I feel I have a Psychological issue and that perhaps I indulge more in eating things that are not the best for me. The thinking being that at some stage I will lose weight with this condition and why not enjoy life and not worry about my weight being on the high side. As to alcohol, perhaps I have alcohol more often – but not every day by any means – and I know reducing this would help me be healthier.

So, today my husband came home from work and I burst into tears when I told him about my test results. We have been saying that I might have 20 years in my journey with Parkies. This new diagnosis has me frightened that I have wrecked my liver and maybe reduced my chances of living anywhere near that long.

I may be catastrophizing over this and should wait to talk to my GP. As soon as possible! But, I am frightened by this new health issue that has raised it’s ugly head. I know I have to take personal responsibility for this new diagnosis. Unlike Parkies – where I have been innocent, as far as I know in causing it – I have to take responsibility for this condition.

Still, it does sometimes feel that I get more than my fair share!

Published by kiwipommysue

I am a retired Social Worker having retired in May 2024. I had been a Social Worker for over 20 years and for the sake of my health and wellbeing I chose to retire early. I have some literary projects underway and am enjoying the freedom of no longer working. Working on my projects at my own pace and enjoying my new hobby of lawn bowls is a wonderful thing. No regrets and a new kind of busy in retirement is wonderful.

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