Just when things were going so well…

I have in recent times said to my husband and others that I am feeling very happy in my retirement and content. I shouldn’t have tempted fate!

About 4-6 weeks ago I started to have pains mostly shooting down my left leg, but also a bit on my right. They were sharp pains but not too painful and if I walked around a bit they eased off.

However, in the last couple of weeks, for some unknown reason, the pain had become increasingly worse. The last few days have been hell with excruciating pain down my left leg to the point where it has been difficult to take more than one or two steps. I have been to the after hours surgery and was given one batch of medicines. I had had an x-ray and as he was reading the results, he casually mentioned that I had an enlarged heart. Knowing Adam died from a similar thing was more than a bit worrying. However, blood tests showed it was only slightly larger than normal. So that is one worry to take off the list.

The meds the after hours gave me didn’t do much and so I called in to see my GP because the pain just keeps getting worse. Luckily he could fit me in. They didn’t do much so spoke to the GP locum and he was all for me seeing a neurosurgeon and having an MRI. Sounded a bit freaky jumping straight into talking about surgery!

Spoke to my usual GP and changed meds again. I burst into tears because the pain is so bad. The worst pain I can ever remember having. I hope the meds start to work out or I might have to end up in hospital so they can get my pain under control! Something I am not that keen on, but if it needs to happen to get rid of this pain then I may have to go.

I am so ticked off that everything was falling nicely into place for a happy retirement. All of this is not Parkies related but it’s the rotten cherry on top of a cocktail of conditions that plague my poor body.

I am so over it. I hope someone can do something to help me as the pain is becoming unbearable. Ade has ordered me to completely rest for a few days which will be hard to do. But I will try.

This may sound trivial, but bowling season starts in a few weeks and I have been looking forward to playing with all my new bowling friends. I just hope we can get on top of it all so I don’t miss out.

So, here I am again with a new malady upsetting my equilibrium and making me miserable.

I want to get back to happy and content in retirement.

There was a moment in time there when I was!

I want it back!