Doing it tough…

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Things aren’t going swimmingly for me at the moment. Work is tough at the best of times, but the last two weeks have been particularly difficult. I have come home in tears more often than not and it’s not a nice feeling.

I mostly think that I am handling life with Parkinson’s, arthritis, bad knee and a stressful job pretty well, but at times the whole mess of stress inducing life jumps up and bites me.

I hate the way it feels when I get overwhelmed, there seems to be little to do to improve my mood and living with someone who comes home in tears 3-4 times in the last week or two can’t be great for my husband.

Sometimes work seems to be performing a bunch of thankless tasks, that are taxing, complicated and take all my mental and physical energy to cope with. I am fortunate to work in a supportive environment, but sometimes even that is not quite enough.

So, I am going to consciously try to do some things to boost me up for the next week or two. Potter in my garden, maybe start some crocheting, do some baking and have the grandgirls to stay and try to be kind to myself and not take on too much and rest my body, heart and mind.

My life it seems is a collection of difficult things, most of which I can’t really do a lot about. I just wish it didn’t have to be so hard sometimes.

I need to win Lotto!

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I am a retired Social Worker having retired in May 2024. I had been a Social Worker for over 20 years and for the sake of my health and wellbeing I chose to retire early. I have some literary projects underway and am enjoying the freedom of no longer working. Working on my projects at my own pace and enjoying my new hobby of lawn bowls is a wonderful thing. No regrets and a new kind of busy in retirement is wonderful.

4 thoughts on “Doing it tough…”

  1. Sorry that things are so difficult for you. Genuinely hope that you do win Lotto, or at the very least win the get-an-operation-date-in-the-very -near-future -Lotto!

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    1. Hi Rebecca. I’m sure we all go through a bad patch from time to time. This patch is just taking a lot more out of me and lasting longer than I anticipated. Hopefully, having some time off next week will help me get back to some semblance of normality. Thanks for the kind words. I hope I win the knee surgery lotto too!

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      1. We all do go through bad patches but that doesn’t diminish what YOU are going through one bit. Your struggle to get through a difficult period is real and valid. Parkinson’s on its own is more than enough for one person, let alone everything else that you are dealing with. You come across as an intelligent, warm and mature person and if you’re saying that it’s all getting you down, I totally believe you. I would be exactly the same. Sometimes it’s cathartic to vent and here is a good place because your friends in the Parkie Club understand.

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      2. Thank you for your thoughtfulness and understanding. It does help to be able to put down in words how I feel and to share. I know that those who follow me know for the most part what it is like to struggle at times. Also, it is OK to admit to not coping, because then once you acknowledge it you can get help. I appreciate very much the support you show me through your comments. Hope all is well with you.

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