Starting a new part of our holiday today with a train trip from Leicester to Preston. Tomorrow we pick up a canal boat and have six days on the Lancaster canal just the two of us.
On the journey here, we were making our way through the crowds at Preston railway station and I looked around and I couldn’t see my husband. Unbeknown to me he had stopped to check the platform number on the board. When I couldn’t see him, I admit I felt myself getting very anxious. A few minutes later I saw him and all was ok.
A bit later we had stopped to eat lunch while we waited. Our train turned up and we got up to walk to the train. I had a number of things to gather but my husband had thought I was right behind him. Again I felt a rush of anxiety though I know he wouldn’t leave me behind. I had to explain to him that I needed him to tell me if he was going to stop so that I knew what was happening.
This is a new feeling for me as I don’t think I am normally an anxious person, but perhaps being in another country I didn’t realize how much he is my safety net.
All is well now and we have a night in a hotel and off on the canal boat tomorrow. Here are some pictures of some canal boats nearby. We pick ours up tomorrow
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I’m wondering if this isn’t a symptom of PD? Since diagnosis, I have had similar experiences but not before. Perhaps, though, it’s more of a natural response to feeling a bit vulnerable and less confident, a sign that I am more aware that something might go wrong (a fall or similar). Definitely something to think about and analyse. This is one of the reasons why I enjoy your blog so much, it prompts me to reflect on my own day to day responses to living with PD, in the light of the thoughts that you share. This is such a valuable resource.
The canal boat experience sounds absolutely wonderful. I often listen to sleep stories on the CALM app and there’s a lovely one about a trip down the Oxfordshire canal on a narrow boat that I particularly enjoy.
Take care and relish every moment. The memories will be priceless! 👍
Thank you. I don’t think I was an anxious person before either. It is good I think to recognize these things and share them with those who support us Having a great time so far.
Cool isn’t it! Will post more photos as we go along
Wow, that looks great. I do hope you enjoy it. You couldn’t do any better with Jasmine