I have always been a reasonably confident driver, though for some reason if my husband is in the car I do not quite drive the same. Now I find – and I think this is a Parkies effect – that I lack confidence when parking and backing the car. It is a bit of a ‘Catch 22’ in that I sometimes need someone to direct me but having someone watch me makes me nervous!
I wonder sometimes if I will know when I become less capable? Whether I will fight against it if I am told my driving is not up to scratch? Or will I gracefully accept that those I love would not express such things if they were not true? I would like to think so, but will my stubborn nature get in the way?
These things scare me for many reasons. They scare me because I want to remain a capable confident person. They scare me because I want to maintain good relationships with those I love. They scare me because I am concerned I won’t be aware enough of my limitations and may put myself and others at risk.
Amongst all this, my fervent hope is that those who love me – and who I also love – will continue to do so when/if Parkies turns me into a crotchety difficult old woman.