Life is stressful. Life with Parkies is stressful. Some stress is unavoidable and part of everyone’s daily life.
I find myself with a number of significant stressors in my life at present and I have discovered something about myself recently. That discovery is that I have a finite reserve for dealing with stress. I have an unexpected and – what should be – a significant and unplanned stress which has arisen. I ‘should’ be very stressed about it, but it is as if my mind has said, ‘No, I don’t have room for another stress, therefore I will not accept it.’ I know that if I give in to this new stress, if I absorb it, attend to it, focus on it, I will become very upset about the situation. So, I choose to be positive about the likely outcome of the situation. I cannot influence it, I cannot change it but I can choose not to go down the road of negativity too far, for if I do, it will be the road of no return. The road that leads to a level of despair that I cannot afford.
So, perhaps my brain has learned to protect me from situations that I potentially cannot cope with. Goodness knows life with Parkies has unavoidable stressors and complexities. My brain is a mysterious entity which presents – and will continue to present – my life and my body with new challenges in this journey with Parkinson’s. So if – at this moment – my brain decides to protect me from fully absorbing this new stress, I say ‘thank you’ I’ll take that with gratitude!