I have been a bit absent from my Blog for the last couple of weeks. Maybe that’s a good thing? A good thing because maybe I am letting go of my focus on Parkies and what it means for my life. Maybe, just maybe, I am finding a space slowly that puts Parkies in the background rather than the foreground of my life.
Parkies will always be there and much of what makes me busy right now is a direct result of my diagnosis, but my focus feels like it is slowly shifting. We are selling our house to move to one on one level to ‘future proof’ our home for mobility issues if they occur in the future. As we are downsizing, my life is full of decisions about selling vs keeping furniture and making plans for our new home.
Life is also full of chores generated because our house is on the market. Being uber tidy – which is a challenge – sometimes not being able to find things because I have tidied them away.
As I go about the tasks of packing and sorting and cleaning I have reflected that this really is the best time for making this change. If we had waited till mobility issues were a reality, I would not be able to climb on step ladders to clean high shelves and grab things out of cupboards. I would be an unwilling spectator to such an important time in our lives. Moving now means stress and chaos and upheaval, but at least I am an active participant and that is important to me. This is not something my husband should have to organise alone, so although this is difficult it feels more and more like the right time, the right decision and hopefully our new home will be the right home for years to come.