It seems from Day 1 in some ways my confidence has been affected. Suddenly, there seemed to come upon me doubt about my abilities in a number of areas.
Is my voice getting too soft?
Do people notice when I lose the thread of a conversation?
Can I think through a solution to problems at work like I used to?
Can I walk up those hills still?
I don’t know why, but my diagnosis has made me doubt myself, yet it is only early days. I need to remind myself that I am still me and still capable in many ways. I went walking in the hills with my husband yesterday. The walk has some reasonable hills which – while my legs warm up – have always been challenging. However, yesterday I found myself thinking, ‘now I have Parkies can I do this?’ in places it took a bit of positive self-talk to get up those hills. Yet, only a few months ago I would have just put it down to needing to warm up and get into it.
I think my mantra should be ‘Parkies is not an excuse’ and get out and get on with it and keep doing or the danger will be that a lack of confidence will rob me of these opportunities way before it is necessary!