Anxious about being anxious

We are in a tropical paradise having a lovely relaxing time. We have not booked any tourist tours and are just enjoying relaxing together.

The one thing in particular that has surprised me is the difficulty I have snorkelling. I don’t just get a bit stressed, I have been extremely anxious starting out. Just sitting in the shallows trying to put on a mask and flippers has caused me a lot of stress. Of course, it has also not been a lot of fun for my husband.

The logical me can’t quite comprehend why I am so anxious, but I guess it is just another gift that Parkies has given me. I had so much trouble putting on my mask again and hated it when water got in. I also tried my best to slow my breathing down and while I had some improvement, I was still breathing quicker than normal. This of course lead me to be more fatigued. So, it has not been the relaxed communing with the fish in the lagoon that it used to be.

I can’t say exactly why I am so anxious other than I know that often anxiety is part of the package. We will try snorkeling again while we are here, but this will be the last time we go somewhere and snorkel.

Just another thing that Parkies has taken from me.