Feeling in a reflective mood this evening. I went to work as usual today and asked about a patient that had to go back to the main hospital as he had become unwell. I was then told that the patient had died over the weekend. He was only in his mid 30’s. I was shocked that this had happened and it was completely unexpected. It brought to mind my own son’s passing in 2020. Again, unexpected and shocking and a huge grief to us all.
His Mother and Father came to clear out his room and I took some time to spend with them and to acknowledge their grief. It was difficult to see and brought back to me some of my own feelings and my own loss.
Neither of us as Mother’s should have to say goodbye to our sons at such a young age. They had so much potential and – we thought – so much life still to live.
But, it also brings home to me, that although I have a degenerative condition, that I am still living a life. A good life with good supports. I may live 20 more years or I may not. I could have something happen to me and not be here tomorrow. None of us have a crystal ball to know what our destiny will be.
This is why, I now try to live my life in the moment. Enjoying and seeking out things and people that bring me joy. Like the Mother who lost her son, life can take a turn we didn’t expect. So, I have Parkinson’s. That is a known and undisputable fact. But who’s to say something else may happen to my health which is even worse?
We are not promised tomorrow. So, let’s celebrate every today that we have!