I work in a busy hospital and have shared that I am a Social Worker in a Neurological Ward. I had a patient due to discharge and realised I had missed a few things that I should have set up for him. A lot of scrambling ensued to try to put in the supports he needed.
Part way through the process, I found myself thinking, ‘Is this my Parkinson’s at work, making me less onto it than I should be?’ I find I am sometimes sensitive to this. If I haven’t picked up on a need for someone, does that mean I am adversely affected cognitively?
It is important to me, to continue to be effective and useful in my job. To contribute. To be of value. I hate to think there will be a time when I am not. Then I stopped and thought about what work has been like lately. The ward is full. This doesn’t often happen, due to the complexity of the work. I have had some complex cases, which take time and brain power and consultation with my colleagues to work through.
Perhaps, my ‘dropping the ball’ is due to simply being over-stretched with my workload and not due to my Parkinson’s? I certainly hope so!
It helps that I have a supportive colleague that I work with. She also said she was finding she had missed a few things due to workload. It was reassuring that someone without the added complication of a Neurological disorder was also doing some ball dropping!
I think sometimes I need to cut myself some slack. To realise, that actually, I am doing pretty well considering the demands of the job and the impact of Parkinson’s. All I can do, is try my best and be kind to myself when things go a bit awry. I am not perfect, but I am human and we all make mistakes and miss things sometimes, not just us Parkies people!
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I work in healthcare too and halfway through getting cuppa for my patients, I even forget whether they wanted tea or coffee after just having asked them one minute ago. Lol. Most of the time we work on autopilot. And on especially busy days, that’s when the balls start dropping.
Could be just one of those days. 🙂
I think we sometimes need to remind ourselves that everyone slips up now and again. It’s not just Parkies peeps.